Please do not look here.
This place is filled with my extreme and destructive thoughts.

I will try to stay here, learning bits of things to pathetically fantasize about what I could achieve, but the real purpose, in truth, is just to stop myself from completely giving in to all of this.

Those disgusting people, my friend who died in that place, school bullying, it's as if they never even sent, which is just utterly ridiculous. I have always wanted to stay awake, to hold onto my emotions, but the things I forget are beginning to pile up, and my capacity to think is growing more and more impoverished. I am terrified that the day I finally escape from this place, the day I am finally fully awake, will also be the day I take my own life.